Minica is Go!

of understanding and the state of pity.

2011-11-14T16:46:00.000+07:00

your ego
will be
the death
of you.

of doubts and lingering awkwardness.

2011-11-11T10:52:00.000+07:00

i'm happy.
you're happy.

everybody wins.

right?

of months of our years

2008-03-31T15:26:00.002+07:00

another month waned and died, and i'm still living in deep grudges.

yes, i live my day as empty as i ever be.

if only things were different between me and you, will there be a void looming there in a place where my heart once called home?

will i finally be able to solve the riddles, that been so long assaulting me with so many puzzles to solve?

and yes,

will i still be alone?

(i think i let that question answered by the great Time itself, i suppose)

The Oh-Not-So-Green Mile

2007-06-11T16:54:00.000+07:00

Ay Hoo!!

in just 2 weeks, TWO WEEKS, we're facing our final exams, on our final year! it WILL be a blast! i'm crossing my fingers here, and crossing any other things that can be crossed that is.. hehe..

so, yeah, that kinda sums up this latest post.. hehe.. just thinking about a quickie post just to assure you guys that i'm stil alive and kicking!

Homage.

2007-06-02T00:24:00.000+07:00

once,
i told a friend,
that my life is one hell of a circus,
with many surpises lurking in every corner.

and he (she?) hastily replies,
"yes, life is one great circus,
and we are it's great attraction,
and everytime we act,
either we've greeted with applauses,
or failing miserably and boo-ed.."

and the key for our happiness,
lies in the aftermath,
or as he (she) says,
the flow..

The Guillotine

2007-05-20T00:54:00.000+07:00

are Man becoming weaker by the second?
are Machines, of their own creation,
making us too intimate with our own contented life?

will we, their creator, for one point in our frail life,
will witness their rise as a contender for our race,
and for once will be able to overcome the limitations that we created?

will the Shield that we created to fortify our lives,
and warms our heart at night,
eventually be the Scythe, the one who will purge us
into neverending bloodbaths?

will we be able to overcome our weaknesses,
before all of our fears sums before our eyes,
and ends our feeble existence?

editor's note: haha, i'm out of the hiatus state! btw, up there is somethng i wrote about my relationship with my computer, who recently blown out of exsistence.. hehe

Halt!

2007-05-03T12:16:00.000+07:00

haha, sorry for the delay.

got so wound up in my final assignment (no, really), i even don't have time to check my mails, and my internet sucks anyway.

anyhoo, this blog will go into suspended animation (no post for awhile for all you simpletons out there), and i'll be seeing you guys again after i get out of those assignments..

Another Perfect Day Wasted

2007-03-22T02:32:00.000+07:00

"our youth are seeping away,
and yet another perfect day wasted"

*made with Canon IXUS65, 15 sec shutter, and a touch of retouch, no cropping required.

another impulsively short blog update

2007-03-17T23:56:00.000+07:00

just a little update to let you guys know that this blog is still up and running. haha.
well, this couple of week has been hectic, to say the least, too much commotion to even post here, so i won't even bother to bore you guys any further..

oh yeah, got a new addition to the Band of Fools cast, The Damsel, will give you guys the details in short notice..

cheers

ps: sorry for being kinda poetic in the last couple of posts, trying to rediscover myself here.. haha

The Boy and The Creaking Mirror

2007-03-04T03:35:00.000+07:00

there lived a boy,
not young but naive nonetheless,
he is not a source of wonders,
but infact, a rather plain person who often foreseened.

once in his long path of life,
the boy stumbled upon a mirror,
who claims the mastery of time,
and can see the depths of one's future.

and lo and behold!
the boy catches a glimpse of his own future,
and he sank deeper and deeper,
as the mirror foretold his story.

and as he carry on,
for once, he blinked,
and he saw,
that for all around him is catasthrope himself,
guising as the ever flawless utopia,
waiting to even the odds,
and extinguish even the smallest spark of hope.

but, falter he will not!
as he bolstered his will,
he made an oath to carry on,
never regarding his own difficulties.

thus the boy carry on,
leaving the devious mirror shattered in his wake,
a warm light in his hand,
and a stout desire to change his destiny,
he started to walk his path once again.

The Band Of Fools

2007-02-18T02:59:00.000+07:00

Hark! And there they are,
looming in the shallow halls of youthness,
are the band of fools.

for many years, they've been together,
prowling the ups and downs of the great life itself,
the alleyways of our times,
waiting for the perfect moment,
to be cast on the spotlight of their wildest imagination..

Hark! The Joker!

the one who found himself too fond with words,
although he finds it difficult to spoke it out loud.
the common scapegoat between the fools,
though he is not as naive as he looks,
the imitation of irony himself.

Hark! The Minstrel!

the sole one who creates melodies to carve the night,
and the one who thinks lightly in any circumstances.
he speaks loudly of his minds,
spontaneously combusting words into thin air,
the one who foregoes his dream to chase another.

Hark! The Thinker!

the most cunning of all,planning deeply before he strikes,
silently connecting the dots to create the one great meaning,
whilst, behind the ingenuity,
lies many great pain he hid.

Hark! The Dreamer!

the mind of curiosity, chasing every shadows with glee,
always trying to find the right mask to wear,
and often lost in the divine worlds of meaning,
where exit is highly plausible only for the uninitiated.

Hark! The Rebel!

The one who finds darkness as a place fitting for his throne,
and the one who looks the opposite of life for their hidden meaning,
for appearance can fool even the most keen eyes,
because deep down, he still hold his truth true.

Yeah.. It's the time of the year again..

2007-01-13T21:50:00.000+07:00

...
for the general audiences

sorry for not updating
sorry for not keeping in touch
sorry for being a disappointment
sorry for being passive
sorry for being late
sorry for all those words i didn't mean to say
sorry for the complications that came afterwards
sorry for not developing my skills
sorry for being childish most of my time
sorry for not living up the dream
sorry for repeating the same mistake
sorry for keep repeating the mistake again and again
sorry for being too stubborn to think
sorry for being overly ambitious at times
sorry for my knack of dropping things
sorry for my knack of bumping,scratching,head-banging,slumping into things

sorry for my broken resolutions

...

for a particular person

sorry for being such a jerk
sorry for leaving you alone
sorry for all the words i say, or didn't say
sorry for letting you in my heart
sorry for trusting all those words around me about you
sorry for letting go
sorry for your dead pet
sorry just because I'm an idiot

all in all,

i'm sorry for just being a total asshole to you.

Uh, Can I Have An A/C adapter, Please?

2006-11-04T10:58:00.000+07:00

haha, ternyata saya baru nyadar kalo colokan listrik tu bisa beda-beda di tiap negara, jadinya gini deh, begitu nyampe kamar hotel, langsung nelpon room serpis buat dibawain adaptor.. haha..

yup. V-A-C-A-T-I-O-N, a well deserved one, i may add.. the sole reason why i haven't updated in a looooong time.. or so it seems.. hehe..

dan menilik kejadian-kejadian di masa lalu.. kemanapun gwe pergi.. pastilah selalu ada hal bodoh yang mengikuti.. mulai dari numpahin Nescafe di tengah-tengah turis Jepang, masi make sendal trus seenak jidad masuk2 Masjid Negara, dilarang masuk Casino gara2 umur lom 21 (WTF! tinggal 15 ari gt), salah makan di buffet Indian Food (>.< !!), dikira idiot gara2 keycard kamar ga jalan (padahal emang rusak!), ampe dikira idiot (lagi) ama supir taksi yang logat sing-lish nya kentel banget ampe2 ngomong Merchant Road aja Mei Can Loo.. *sigh

and, in spite of those stupid events, i've also have an healthy dose of UNFORTUNATE events.. hahaha.. what a life! walaupun ga ampe parah, cuma tetep aja agak sedikit mengesalkan.. dimulai dari tutupnya toko buku grafis di M'sia ampe even paling klasik; 'lupa-bawa-laptop-pas-ada-WiFi-gratis-di-Starbucks-terdekat', haha..

but, overall, it's a fun trip.. and one thing yang gwe suka banget adalah pas penerbangan gwe ksana, seluruh pesawat ketutupan kabut (ato awan?) keabu-abuan, en warnanya monokrom, bukan gradasi seperti biasanya.. jadi untuk beberapa saat... it seems like time has stopped (stidaknya ampe Lasagna-nya dateng.. hehe), and the plane kind of hovers in a grey emptiness.. pokoknya aneh, keren.. tp juga eerie gt d.. hehe..

pas perjalanan pulang sih, biasa-biasa aja, cuma gwe keliatannya baru nyadar pas di perjalanan balik, gwe BLOM beli oleh-oleh buat siapa-siapa.. uhuhuh.. maaph yah smua.. i'll make up for it later!

ps: haha, atleast from all of my stupid experiences, gwe ga nyebut air putih 'WHITE WATER', and i know someone who DOES.. haha

T Minus Two Days

2006-10-22T18:03:00.000+07:00

eh??

hehe.. thought of a funny little update, since i've got nothing to do neway..

so gemana kabare kalian semua?? ada yang mudik? huehueue... yah a little advice ajah.. kalo mudik yah ga usah sungkan-sungkan.. yang lamaaa geto.. kan enak nih Jakarta... kapan lagi isa guling-gulingan di jalan... ehehehe...

hueuehe.. that's it for this update setengah ga niat.. tar deh gwe kasi live report kalo pas gwe lagi mudik ke negeri jiran disanaa.. (moga2 ga ketutupan kabut).. hahaha...

smell you guys later!

ps: who the heck is Shelly.. hmmmmmm

Title Pending.. (dunno what to write, actually..)

2006-10-17T01:57:00.000+07:00

hai!

it's been quite a while, isn't it?

haha.. been through a lot of commotions guys...

yeah, salah atunya adalah laptop gwe jatoh dan gwe menghabiskan minggu gwe meratapi kebodohan gwe.. duh..

and the other reason is.. yup, you guys guessed it right.. insomnia striked again.. and this time.. it caught me unaware... going to sleep at 3am is NOT good for anyone...

uuuh... kalo kaya gini sih, pengen nyari kegiatan apaa gitu.. biar tidur enak...

haha,mengingat gwe ngetik ini di laptop pinjeman.. ampe segini aja dulu yah.. kalo kata Bugs Bunny sih, That's All, Folks!!! hueheuheu.. begitu gwe ada waktu, mungkin beberapa ari lagi.. gwe nulis yang lebi menarik..

hahaha..

One Week After..

2006-10-02T17:23:00.000+07:00

Boo!

i know this is not the scheduled update, but believe me, the update is on, and I'm not going to neglect this blog though.. haha.

it's been a week since i end my internship at a Graphic House somewhere in Sudirman. and, (in par with one of my older post), i find it kinda funny, when you wake up one day, and find out that you don't have to do the same routines that you've been doing for the last two months..

as for the guys there, i mean at my intern office, they're so unique, yet friendly, thus erasing the myth of internees are often neglected.. see, for one instance, the girls (yes, all of them) are way too narcissistic for their own good.. haha, 145 photos on my cellphone can clarify this..*wink

as for the graphic designer, the office has a wide arrangement of unique persona, from one way-too-loud designer to the eagle-eyed art director, they're all there..

haha, but it's a fun 2 and a half month, where i've learned enough, criticized enough, and punched enough (doh!) to leave a valuable memory in one phase in my helluva life..

haha.. so to that one Graphic House in Sudirman, serious kudos to you guys!

PS: cape euy pake full inggris.. :p

And It Goes On And On...

2006-09-19T19:25:00.000+07:00

hai hai...

the usual biweekly blog update is GO!

haha, this week is my last week as an intern in my company... leaving many valuable, aand many not-too-valuable memories with it too*smirks

hmmm, recently gwe suka banget de nyari-nyari lagu pake MP3 blog... (yeah, partly because my Limewire been blocked... haha), dan so far, so good... koleksi library gwe lumayan bertambah, and yang terpenting adalah gwe bisa mengetahui opini orang-orang yang ngupload tuh lagu.. *tsahh

oh yah, entah kenapa gwe jadi suka banget dengerin podcast... walaupun intinya cm dengerin orang ngobrol selama 1 jam-an geto, tp kinda fun.. palagi kalo dengerin podcast yang memang related ma hobi gwe... haha..

cough... and that's it for now i guess... huhuh.. i'm trying to make up a main topic for this time's post, but i can't find any.. haha.. so i guess i'll post my thoughts next time.. haha..

ps: i'm thinking to convert this blog into an english only blog.. necessary or not? haha.. aand i'm thinking about reviving the ol' LENORA blog.. hahaha.. NOT..

Midst Of The Crowd - Afterthought

2006-09-05T10:33:00.000+07:00

hmmm... when i'm writing this entry, i'm on some 'Plaza' in central Jakarta, wondering, humming, eventually BORED...

hehehe.. kita kadang-kadang berkomentar akan rutininitas hidup kita, tapi, ketika kita akhirnya lepas dari rutinitas tersebut barang sehari saja, rasanya ada sesuatu yang hilang.

atau ini hanya masalah adaptasi diri?

rutinitas, is an common factor in life, we hate it, but we'll surely gonna miss it when it's gone, or until we find another routines to hold on to.

rutinitas.. sebuah lingkaran setan? atau tujuan hidup kita?

*ahem.. okay, stop yappin... gotta figure out how to get those Ice-Blended without have to walk my sorry ass home.. Eek..

Blabber Of The Week!

2006-08-27T22:36:00.000+07:00

hi hi y'all

hmm.. it seems a looo~ng time has passed since i written my last entry, so, yeah.. i'm updating now..

well..

skarang saya sudah bekerja! although only magang, and in a company that is not-so-design oriented kinda ones, but.. i've learn quite a heck of lessons.. pelajaran2 penting yang gwe harap bisa membentuk diri gwe.. cough.. okay, enough with the kinky talking..

hmm.. it's a long month though.. and i've kinda missed the good ol' days of ngampus.. hehe.. skarang ini jarang banget deh isa ketemu ma orang-orang yang dulu pas masi kuliah (maksud gwe pas dulu, waktu masih ada kelas..) deket.. paling cuma biweekly, en itupun cuma beberapa jam doang... i've heard rumours of a reunion.. and waiting kepastiannya neh.. come on guys!

on a lighter note... i've met with lotsa new peeps in my internship programme (heh, sounds cool isn't it? internship programme.. ), and all of em are interesting... in a kind of way...

well.. that's it for blabber of the week entry.. and i'll try to update this page biweekly... hopefully.. ahaha..

PS: sowee for the gado-gado language... gi males mikir.. clogged head for sum kind of a reason.. nah.. maybe i'm just bored.. again..

PPS: maybe i'll learn french for a change.. no?

Boo!

2006-06-23T17:30:00.000+07:00

boo!!

got nothing to doo aaandd soooo boooooreeeed!

AAGH!

Waiting

2006-06-22T01:38:00.000+07:00

hmmm...

we spend most of our life waiting...

like now.. im waiting for answers... for many things..

but please.. give the real answer, not answers based on considerations or such, because it really matters to me...

why does it matters?
because the answer will change me forever.

Absurd

2006-06-08T00:30:00.000+07:00

Huwah.. saya bingung!

saya bingung ma kerjaan nih.. huwehehehe.. masa ada agency yang katanya jawabanya baru bisa dikasi 2 bulan lagi.. OMG..

intinya, saya gundah.. banyak pertanyaan yang menunggu untuk dijawab, dan banyak jawaban yang gwe rasa, bukan jawaban yang sebenarnya..

huhu.. what a life, darlin'.. what a life...

Goodbye Solitary Life

2006-06-01T13:10:00.000+07:00

ayhoo!!

this is my very last day in da kost.... huhuhu.. feelin' quite sad now..><

for the past two months (apa?? hanya dua bulan), gwe uda ngekost untuk mengurangi cost, tapi ternyata costnya sama aja kliatannya.. huehehehe..

en sekarang sudah saatnya saya pindahan.. move out, and back to my old cozy home.. huhu..

waktu kini menunjukkan jam makan siang yang ideal, namun gwe masi berdiam diri di kost-an, merenungken saat-saat terakhir gwe di kost... huwaa...

EOP then... see ya later!

Longest Day - The Aftermath

2006-06-01T11:13:00.000+07:00

fiuh!

sambungan dari post kemaren~

ternyata kemaren adalah salah atu longest day gwe...

setelah kejadian-kejadian kemaren, ternyata malemnya temen gwe yang gi BT itu mengajak gwe makan malem, sekalian ke Coffee Bean buat ngopi-ngopi... well, ke Coffee Beannya sih ga jadi, malah akhirnya gwe nontonin ni orang maen bilyar for an hour... sigh..

bis tu, balik ke rumah, but we're not done yet! ternyata oh ternyata, saya masih bermain game... dan pulang-pulang jam empat pagi aja loh.. huehuehue... cape abessh...

on a lighter note, temen gwe yang di post sebelomnya depresi karena tempat magangnya ga jelas, akhirnya dapet tempat baru! hehe, congrats to you yah! walopun melenceng dari Graphic House ke Magazine.. tapi atleast masi berhubungan ama Desain kan? kekekeke

A Busy Busy Day

2006-05-31T17:58:00.000+07:00

wew!!

what a looo~ng day i've faced today!

hmm.. pertama-tama dibangunin ma temen, trus cm dikasih beberapa patah kata... 'Joe..Mandi!', bukan, bukan karena gwe jarang mandi... tapi karena uda jam 12, en ari ini, ternyata oh ternyata, adalah hari terakhir isi FRRS buat semester depan! Weks!

jadilah gwe mandi, terburu-buru tapi tetap tak melupakan gosok gigi, lalu memakai clana jins gwe yang trusted itu, lalu pergi ke kampus, dengan spatu.. yang sayangnya.. TANPA KAOS KAKI...

setelah urusan itu selesai, eh saya diundang (atau dipaksa?) untuk turut membantu temen gwe yang mao pindahan kost.. jadinya gwe melewatkan siang hari dengan melepas kabel, nqangkat TV, en masukin barang-barang aneh ke dalam kantong plastique.. hehe.. uda lelah, but it was fun..

setelah itu selesai, langsung terbayang mandi air panas, lalu beauty sleep selama 8 jam.. selagi membayangkan itu smua... eh temen gwe yang atunya nelpon lage, minta ditemenin ke mal.. oh tidak.. well, atleast gwe masi dapet mandi air panasnya.. *wink

so jadinya gwe, yang uda kecapean, aga pegel, en uda berkunang-kunang arus nemenin temen gwe, yang lagi BT ma cewenya.. dan mengingat temen gwe punya catatan panjang dalam anger management, jadi demi kepentingan bersama, gwe temenin d.. daripada tar kursi terbang lagi.. huehuehue... sigh..

en now here i am... jam 17.30, mo ngetik blog ne critanya, eh ada telpon dari temen gwe yang atu lagi, kali ini cewe... huhuhu.. kliatannya gwe memang tempat temen2 gwe lari kalo ada masalah d... huehuehue..

ps: buat yang tadi nelpon jam 5.45, tenang aja non, atleast you already have a workplace to go to.. lha gwe? lom punya.. T.T...

First post goes here! Pronto!

2006-05-31T14:40:00.000+07:00

hi y'all

this is my new blog.

you can find all about me and my activities here!

i'll start posting in a while..